denial

You.

i cant think of anyone but you. why ? i dont know. but its you and only you. Coherence falls to its knees with the effort to describe it. but ur like magic. you do something to me . no its not love. im too cynical for love. no its not lust. im too scared of lust. but something.

something

I dont know but i know. i smile when i cry and i laugh when im angry. you? i dont like u per se. i like whats in u. the difference. a dark lost fairy around mere mortals and ur floundering to keep urself intact. u dont know whether to reach out or to run into yourself. this is not an ode because i dont love u.

but ur like magic. and u dont believe me because u say that u dont believe in magic. u liar. Because u believe in it with all ur heart which u keep locked away. and now i see it .and now i know it. and ur scared coz its out. and i can see it clearly . now what will do? what will you do? what will u have me do?

but i dont love you because i am too cynical for love and too fearful of lust. love is not the magic. the magic is you and thats when Coherence weeps for me to stop . my head hurts coz of this nonsense. nonsense?! NONSENSE. im so strange im in love with a dark angel. oh god, oh no... i said im in Love..

No......

the nest

I have set the bird free,
free to fly away
for as long as she wants,
to as far as she wishes,
to make new beginnings,
to explore new horizons.

for i know,
the nest is where she'll come,
for that is where she belongs.

The girl who knew me too much

People change
They betray
When hearts break
Why do we pray?

Miles away from i stand
bin a while since you left
but the wounds
oh the wounds are still fresh

opened my heart to you
and look what you did
why did you grow apart
it made me look so stupid

i saw through you
knew you wanted to leave
why did i try so hard?
why did i still believe?

Show me how to live..

Living in the past never helps.. but it sure is comforting when your present is not what you wanted it to be..

But at the end of it all, life teaches you, that it is meant to be lived in the present.. the essence of life is realized when you go with the flow.. not clinging on to a past memory..

So how difficult is it? To forget and move on.. to let things pan out on themselves? Do what you have in hand, bond with those around you, and build new friendships, new relationships.

You would like to believe what you had was all you wanted from life, and in the process, this veil of past never allows you to cherish and appreciate what you have ahead of you.

At the end of it all, life comes a full circle, your present becomes your past.. and this vicious circle of living in the past never ends..

Reminds me of the Audioslave song.. Show me how to live!